Saturday, August 22, 2009

Life Reflections Part 1

As I work diligently, performing my duties as though they were flawlessly programmed by a supercomputer somewhere, I loose myself deep in thought. The 10 year anniversary of my departure from my concrete, yet unstable, family life is soon approaching. It was time I broke off, and moved on with my life with further schooling! How did I get here, whom have I met, where I am going? All of these questions lead to the mental re-enactment of the last few years' events.............


I moved away from my base home life, not knowing what to expect, just as any other teen I suppose. When moving away from home; some might feel scared, nervous, excited, relieved or even overwhelmed. In retrospect, I adventured into the new world expressionless! Not feeling anything, just going along with the world.
As I sit, surrounded in boxes and bags, I find my self in the middle my bedroom floor, as my mother and her boyfriend(whom of which we hear of later) walk up the stairs to leave and begin there 3 hour journey back home. It is at this point I am floored with a feeling I am yet to describe. Let me try now.... empty-ness, hollow-ness, uncertainty and a little nervous. I get up, forcing the tears back, as I look out the basement window, seeing the green Ford AeroStar drive off! It is here; that I am hundreds of miles away from any of my friends, as they too, all went in there own directions after high- school. Not knowing a single person, a single store, a single anything, I sit here and think about nothing, .....just thinking. I then come to a conclusion that I should take a walk, get to know the neighborhood. Loosing myself, and my house, I finally get back home 3 hours later. I feel much better, trying to think of nothing related to my situation and await many things, including the phone hook up, the delivery of my bed, the cable Internet connection, and many more, that should be taking place with in the next week or two!

Finally, the school days come! I meet some cool, and some not so cool people! That is the way the world turns, I suppose. Of all the people in which I met, none of whom were more than school mates. We did our work at school, when school finished for the day, nothing more than the casual and courteous “see ya tomorrow's".

It was not until going onto about a month, that I made my first real friend.
It was the first day in which our Phys. Ed. class started. It was not much of a class, just the teacher going through the sports that would be upcoming in the course, and outlining the requirements. After this 15 minute talk, we were shown to the weight room, to where we had a chance to purchase a membership. It was at this point that Denise(whom of which would be the cause of much drama later on) had said 'what's your plans for tonight' I did not think she was talking to me, so I ignored it... .......'jayson,.... whats your plans for tonight.?' , not wanting to express the fact that I had no friends and no life, I said I was tired and was going home to sleep(which in a way, was true, I was tired!). She then said...' oh, I was gonna invite you over for supper'. We chatted a bit and as it turns out, I was over at her apartment. (sounds hte the beginning of a porn don't it.)We had a nice steak dinner, where I met her children. Damned if I could remember there names now. We sat and 'chewed the fat' for a couple hours. Discussing our past, histories, hobbies, interests, and such.... just small talk really. You know, it was at this point of events, the ice broke!

The days went on, and as any school does, tests and examinations arose.

The following week, Aidah(with whom, up until this time, I did not get along with completely, due to her 'motherly and over powering personality', but we enjoyed each others company during school) was commenting to the class in general on how she would enjoy the company of a study partner for our first upcoming bakery test. Having the ice broken, I humbly volunteered.
We made plans of heading over to Hopkin's(my place of work at the time) for cheesecake and to study! We got out of class at 2ish p.m. and we headed straight to Hopkin's. We studied a while and 4:00 rolled around. It was at this time she said that she should head home(next door) as Natalie(another class member) was headed over to pick her up to go out to play ball with the class (for which I did not sign up). So we packed up and we headed next door. When we arrived, I had told Aidah I would wait until Natalie came, as she did not want to wait alone. When Natalie, arrived I was invited to join them. Good lord, I think to my self. But nonetheless, I decided to go. We headed down to the park and were the first to arrive as the game was not scheduled till abouts 5. Game went well! I played a little, however, Im not much of a ball player... 'but showing to be a good sport'! It seems as though the three of us were the only ones not drinking as we're not a drinking crowd! Its 6:30ish and we all head off. The three of us going in Natalie's car as she was gonna drop Aidah and I off at our house's. Along the way we chatted, small talk really. I shotgun, chatted mostly with Natalie and we both discovered each others love for a good steak. We all then decided that we were starving, as none of us had eaten. So after much debate we decided to beef it over to Bonanza. There we ate like cows and studied till 9:00. WOW. What a night!


The following days, things went on as usual. It was roughly 3 days later that I and Aidah had casually said we should do something! Later that day, we still said we should do something. Not sure what yet though, the day went on.
On our ritual daily bench wind-down. We decided to invite Natalie, as it was so much fun with the three of last time. She joking said “sure, you are just using me for my car.” As it turns out we did do something that night, but hell if I can remember what.

The following weeks we did something every night after school. Only separating on the week-ends where we all went to work in separate cities.
We spent, literally, every waking moment together! We got up and were at school by 7.00am, got out of school, around 2:00pm, then we went out for supper, did something(movies, swimming, just chilling, spa-ing, cruising, bowling, cooking, watching Survivor, dinning out). We stayed out until 10 or 11pm every night, to go home and sleep to be at school at 7am to start all over again! It was fucking great!

Things were looking great. Life continued in this fashion for several weeks.
It was soon to come that Denise joined our threesome. We did everything, starting with a large feast including many courses. We went to Safeway and I purchased tones of groceries, where went back to Denise's place and cooked up a storm. From this point on, we did everything together for months.
Soon, Thursday's were set, Survivor Africa started. We being Survivor fans, and Aidah coming from Africa, this was our 'special night'. Thank god for this, for every night was a spending spree...Thursday was 'cheap night', where we stayed home and ate, and watched TV.

On one particular episode, one of the tribe alliances, made friendship necklaces. We thought this was cool. The following week, we happened to be in the mall and stopped by a shop that sold necklace apparel. Various interesting beads and such. We decided that we would all pick a cool bead and all 4 of us would have identical necklaces to represent our circle.
That Thursday, as we watched survivor, we built our necklaces, and vowed to never take them off!

The weeks went flying by jam packed full of events and fun. Swimming, dinning, cooking, watching tv, spa-ing, movies, shopping, traveling, you name it! Things were great!

It was not too long, before, Nat, Aidah and I realized that Denise was not wearing her necklace one day. We did not say anything about it. It was after about a week that we mentioned, she said that she had forgot to put it back on after her shower. It was at that point, I think that the 4-some trembled. Shying herself away from the group, Denise started hanging out with the “other group”(including our arch-enemy MAT COMSTCOCK). She, leaving the group, only made the three of us stronger.

Life went on pretty much as usual, jammed packed with events(a little cheaper now, than before, but still great times)

It was at this point that another merged into the group. Back in the past, quite some time ago, Heidi had come to me and asked me If would come over and study our Food Safe course with her. I had already made plans with Nat, and Aidah( well not really, but it was a unwritten law, that we always did SOMETHING). I said I would get back to her, and later that day, it was planned the Nat, Aidah and I were going to study over at my place. So we invited Heidi along, and she said she was too tired to leave the house, so we ended up at here place for the first time. We ordered pizza and chilled it up.

It was at this time that Heidi and I grew on each other. Chatting and such.
Now, it can be seen that this could and did cut into the groups time. But not much was said, and I balanced both situations nicely. As it turns out Heidi, did not want to socialize with Nat or Aidah, cuz she thought that they hated her, and Nat and Aidah did not want to socialize with Heidi, cuz they thought she hated them. So there I am stuck right smack dab in the middle.
I managed both nicely, of course the group did suffer, since we spent every waking moment together. It was one day that my management skills flawed me. I came out of my house, and both were parked there right behind each other. Heidi, wanting to rent a movie and Nat and Aidah wanting to go to the spa. Well I put my foot down here and said this has got to stop. It was at this time that I had told each other the story about the others not hating each other, and we should chill together. As it turns out, we all ended up going to the spa and having a blast.

From then on Heidi and I did much together. We spent time with the group, but Heidi, never warmed up to the group and was not as close-nit as we were with each other.

Soon my friendship with Heidi was tested greatly. I became a 3rd leg. She met her new boyfriend, Steven. All was well, I suppose. However, time went on and the events that Heidi and I did, turned into “STEVEN AND I ARE GOING SWIMMING".his was cool, as I found Steven to be pretty cool. To some degree, this relationship was merged into the group somewhat, but not really. Time moved on, all to fast, school was coming to an end, we all needed a place to move to, some of us were going back home. There was no way I was going back home, and it came upon us one day that I and Hiedi should move in together to share living costs. As Heidi's relationship grew with Steven's they decided that he should move in with, which I had no say in. As the last days of school approached , we all went our separate ways. Nat went back to Pontiex, Aidah, moved to Regina. After living in our new house for a month or two( which we went through hell to find, then went through hell to get), Tristan(whom was my former roommate and good friend) found a job in Moose Jaw and needed to move back, we, with open arms, let him into the family.

Things went well for a a year and A half. Of course we went threw the common issues that living with roommates brings, but all in all, it was good times. Steven I started hating each other... he strangled my cat with a cord, and then back handly stole one of my cats and took it to his farm, as he self-proclaimed we could not have two, and he brought one home... so I guess mine had to go.... poor Daytona..... she went to his farm, while I thought or months she just ran away. I will forever miss that cat. As great as things were going....... we all started to grow in our own ways..... not really apart from each other..... just grew and went our own ways. Tristan was looking for a place closer to work, and there is random causal talk of Steven and Heidi wanting their own place.

He was here that I slightly was concerned and panicked... now Imma have to move and start all over and stuff. But that lasted on a week or so. Ironically my mother called me up one day and mentioned that she and her boyfriend(BOB- whom of which was previously mentioned, and will be mentioned again later--- stay tuned for that Jerry Springer story in part 2), and she asked if I would like to come. With nothing keeping my in Moose Jaw...and the possible disaster of moving drawing closer and closer I accepted graciously.

So that brings me to Saskatoon. WOOT!
Back in the real world, I realize that I did all my tasks flawlessly, and it was time for me to go home. What a day at work! I see Xris outside waiting for me... so I finish up and come on home. This story ends 5ish years ago, perhaps tomorrow I'll fall into another slumber and reflect on my life thus far in Saskatoon.

1 comment:

  1. OMG...I totally cant wait for the rest! Jerry Springer story (I feel honored..as i know i am part of it!) LOL!

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